Sunday, January 31, 2010

bloggity blog blog

Here's the deal. I wish I was more creative at blogging. I love reading blogs. I read blogs from people I'm related to, people I miss, people I've never even met. But, I suck at blogging. I know that. Often, I really don't think I have anything interesting to say, and if I'm not interested, I'm sure other people won't be either. I also read a lot of REALLY GREAT blogs, which makes me feel like my blogs should be great too. I'm a good writer, blogging should come naturally, right?

wrong.

Rarely do I use the creative side of my brain. Throughout college, I've tried to take at least one class a semester that kept me reading and writing, but even so, I fear I've lost the ability to articulate through words what I'm thinking in a way that other people can understand, and find interesting. I've noticed over the years that my vocabulary has suffered since I've stopped reading literature. There are many times that I know there is a word I'm looking for, but have no idea what it is. At one point, I knew it, now- gone. Thank God I don't have to take the GRE- that would be ugly.

So just start reading again, Vickie, that's the simple solution. I wish with all of my heart that I had the time and brainpower to be able to read anything other than Perez. On Friday, I had lunch with the Board of Directors. The President of the VU Guild asked me what I do for fun on campus... and I didn't have an answer. It's not that I'm NOT having fun, or that I don't enjoy life, I just hardly ever do anything just because it sounds fun. I honestly don't have the time. This makes me all the more grateful that I can make pretty much anything fun- even office hours. I laugh more on Fridays with elle dub, Nikki and Micah than I do most other days, and I'm so glad I can count on that. I'm over-committed and I realize that. Maybe after this year, my mentality will no longer be "oh, I CAN do that, so why wouldn't I?" and I'm really hoping that I stop trying to be responsible for everything. Being a leader is great and all, but so incredibly draining.

Needless to say, I'm looking forward to working full time. Who would have thought that a 40-hour work week would give me more free time?

And I guess that's an attempt an a blog post. Maybe someone will find it interesting.

1 comment:

Liz said...

This semester I actively avoided over-committing on campus to allow time for this elusive thing you've described as "fun." I will let you know how it goes!